matcha

i walk into a coffee shop and consider matcha
but people might think im being performative
so maybe ill just get coffee
but thats still performing, just to the audience that would judge me for the matcha
i could get nothing. stand here and leave
but then people will notice i walked into a coffee shop and left
i take a step back. there is no audience. im standing by myself in a coffee shop
this is a private decision between me and a menu
but i know ill tell someone about it later
and i know which version of the story id rather tell
so there is an audience. its just not here yet
i order the matcha. i hate it
i drink the whole thing